I feel like we're all drowning. The ocean is pounding us. Wave after wave after freaking wave. And I'm so sick of it. The damn ocean needs to get a grip. We're just drowning.
My friend had to give birth to a child she couldn't take home. After 36 weeks. She went home with empty arms.
Another family is fighting with everything they have to get to Eastern Europe to save their sweet Hasya, who at 14 weighs 14 pounds. To save one. One of hundreds, maybe even thousands, of children who are shipped off to institutions at the at age of four. FOUR. If they have any 'defect' they are sent away. Kept alive, but nothing more. Changed once a day, living life in a crib. And it costs thousands upon thousands of dollars to save just one.
My friends husband has been in the hospital for over two weeks from severe burns. He'll have months of therapy. Thousands of dollars in medical bills. They have five young kids. He's so active and is being tethered to a bed.
My friend's husband has left them in violent turmoil. She's doing all in her power to survive. She's so strong.
My friend's home is being foreclosed on. They can't figure out why her husband is having seizures. Her daughter has CHD. There are constant health scares.
As for us. Our foster care roller coaster isn't nearly over. After a few weeks at a peak we are once again thrown into the valley. Most of the time I feel like there's not even a safety rail.
So, basically I'm sick of the storms and the waves and the damn roller coasters. I'm on my knees begging for peace for my friends who are my family and myself. Begging for life raft.
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We talked about this last night, how we get so overwhelmed when we see all of these dire struggles and ugliness and it's hard to keep going. We talked about how this world is a broken place because it's not how God designed it and yet in the midst of the worst times there are glimmers of grace and that's what helps us inch through each day. Praying for you as you work through your own roller coaster and care for others who are experiencing such hard times also.
Psalm 57:1-3
"Have mercy on me, my God, have mercy on me, for in you I take refuge. I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings until the disaster has passed. I cry out to God Most High, to God, who vindicates me. He sends from heaven and saves me, rebuking those who hotly pursue me—God sends forth his love and his faithfulness."
Psalm 116: 1-9
"I love the LORD, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live. The cords of death entangled me, the anguish of the grave came over me; I was overcome by distress and sorrow.Then I called on the name of the LORD:“LORD, save me!” The LORD is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion. The LORD protects the unwary; when I was brought low, he saved me. Return to your rest, my soul, for the LORD has been good to you. For you, LORD, have delivered me from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before the LORD in the land of the living."
Isaiah 26:3
"You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you."
Mommy's coming to see you.. Every once in awhile this just gets to you.. but you have your friends and your family and most of all you have your GOD.. sometimes things just happen and really you have to take a deep breath and shake your fist and then carry on.. love you..
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